Nutter

I’ve edited the crap out of my friends list over at FaceBook today. I am trying to figure out how to delete my MySpace all together. I signed up for Twitter, but only to find something else that I never did manage to find (I thought maybe it was friends only?).

Whoot, I found out how to delete my MySpace. The deed is done.

Michael gave me an idea for a new tattoo earlier today. I need to think on it. I am in literary lust with Heinlein and his characters. I have a couple of small pieces planned, a TANSTAAFL and a GROK on the insides of my wrists. He mentioned today I could stand to do them more justice and do a big thigh piece revolving around my favourite Heinlein stories/characters. I agree, but I am still getting the smaller ones inside of my wrists. They just belong there. the TANSTAAFL is going to be an a stylized kind of Russian writing and the GROK is the GROK off of Stranger in a Strange Land. The piece would have to include Stranger in a Strange Land, Time Enough for Love, Cat Who Walks Through Walls, Moon is a Hard Mistress, Job: A Comedy of Justice, To Sail Beyond the Sunset, Methuselah’s Children… Oh, this list goes on. I may have to go with a main “cast” of characters. I’ve been thinking on it all afternoon though. Not a bad idea you had there, Fish, not a bad idea at all.

Malachai has his IEP meeting at the end of the month. He has been recommended for second grade. We’ll see what kind of services he’ll get next year.

My half birthday was yesterday. My dreads are about five months old. If December first rolls around and I want to cut them off… off they go! I’ll give them a year :-) I have one in the back, twice as long as the others. The roots are dreaded, and the tip is dreaded, but I could brush everything in between. The rest are all in good shape. I need to get in to see Chrissy to be dyed again, and I need to go see Strawberry for some maintenance. I don’t really want to do either, mainly because I am dandruffy and the dreads just trap it. I’m not so much embarrassed as… ew.

Mothers Day is coming up. I think we should thank the people that mean the most to us everyday (actually, I think we should be happy and pleasant and say please and thank you to everyone every day, and I try to) so I’m not so much looking for breakfast in bed or lavish gifts or anything. I have a picnic in the park planned for the afternoon with (I hope) some other families we like, and then I am going to see if Sara and/or Michael will keep the kids so we can go into the shop for a little bit.

We set up the sewing machine. It may have a permanent home. Maybe we’ll use it more. What a novel idea.

I have a rotting melon in the fridge. Michael brought home/in the tattoo equipment. I just suck. That melon has been in the fridge a month at least. I wonder if I am avoiding it because I feel like I suck, or if I just don’t care as much as I thought I did. Interesting question to ask myself, no? I wanted it so bad… I’d hate to find out I suck. Not that every beginner sucks kind of suck, but really and truly suck at something I love so much. Something that is so important to my life and my well being and the well being of my family. Think I am being overly dramatic? I don’t. Tattoos feed and clothe us. I’d hate to find out that I stink at giving them. There is a total connection in my head.

We bought a new composter at BJs yesterday. As soon as the fence is up we’re going to dump the old compost into the new bin. I think we’ll just use the old compost bin as a trashcan. Speaking of the fence! The permits were denied because we need to add onto the paperwork that if the fence is black we don’t have to landscape (I want to anyway, but at least we wont be on a deadline) and we need to fax the approval from the HOA because we’re fencing in the easement. We’ll take care of that tomorrow.

I did something stupid today :/

So Michael did some shading on my arm today. I have really bad wrists – just tattooing over the nerves and tendons fucks them up, as well as makes my entire hand do some funny things. Well, he hit the magic spot today! I jerked my arm back (something he said no one has ever done) because I felt what felt like a jolt of electricity down my thumb! Normally I keep pretty still on those areas, I’ve never had a reaction to it like that!

So after letting me settle down (I was almost in tears, it really scared me because everything I do involves my hands in one way or another and what if this was fucking me up worse, you know?) we got back to work and just avoided that area.

He did some work near it, and it was similar, but not same. Not as bad as that actual spot anyway. Crazy!!

We’ll take photos tonight after I uncover and wash up.

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resisting the urge

Ok, so ever since I was a wee lass I have had the urge to not only have a moko, but have some fancy scrolling work on my hands/fingers. I have always managed to resist this urge using the same reasoning I don’t get permanent make up (or at least permanent eyebrows) that as soon as I get something to out there, so visible, so obvious, I will want something else.

I have never been so fickle with my other tattoos, but something that is so out there for the world to see….  even my arms I can mostly cover with long sleeves (my wrists always wind up exposed, my ink goes down to the wrist bone, not just above it) if I have to.

I don’t think I’ll ever have the balls for a moko, but I love seeing them on women. I think they are incredibly sexy if they aren’t overbearing (think enhancing, not covering, the way make up should be).

I might work my way up to my hands, I see something delicate, feminine, like those gothy scrolls you drew in eighth grade, you know? Not exactly those, but something fine, like lace. I want to look down and see my hands covered in faint lines.

I was looking at my hand earlier and it just hit me, like a hammer between the eyes. I so want this done. Fish’ll never do it for me though. Maybe once I learn how *shrugs*

I just feel like, if I haven’t grown out of this urge in a little over a decade, am I ever going to?

soaker


this is blue soaker laid flat


This is sort of how the flaps will be added, but not quite.


this is how i am hoping they sit once closed.

I’ve started one, it’s coming off the upper right side, but i am only about 5 or 6 rows into it, and my hands and wrists are so mad at me, i had to put it down. i wanted to be finished it yesterday, but i actually got a lot done on it. the body had been only half done, and for picking it up/putting it down, and doing it in the dark (i am not so hot at the non0looking knitting, so i am proud of this lol) it got done pretty quick and fairly well.