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30 September 2008 By 2 Comments

I haven’t been bloggin what I’ve been reading… I need to digest it. I was up last night from around 1.30AM to around 3AM worrying about our finances. We’re not bad off, but not great. Michael’s job can’t be shipped overseas, but it depends on people having extra money to throw around, and so our income depends greatly on the state of the world, in an indirect kind of way.

Part of me thinks we should have stuck it out in WV, homesteaded, done for ourselves. We would have had few worries when what our nation has built in cards comes tumbling down on our heads.

The other part of me thinks we’ll be just fine where we are.

I dislike insomnia. I dislike waking up and having nothing to comfort my thoughts, and then my thoughts spiral out of control and turn into bigger worry.

What a way to start the new year. L’Shana Tova my friends.

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soup is hot food

6 June 2008 By 2 Comments

So I was making veggie soup today and I was to the part where I strain out the veggies and squish the soup out of them and throw most of the squished part out.

I told Eshiva to get away from the stove b/c I was moving hot veggies back and forth. I figured she’s get splattered.

My fucking steamer that was propped up on the pot fell back into the pot and soup splashed *everywhere*

I snatched her up, my sister had already jumped up and I asked (ok, I shouted at) her to run and turn the cold water on in the shower. I have never been properly thankful for having a downstairs full bath. I will be from now on.

I got Shivie (and me) into the shower and hosed her down. I think she was more scared than hurt b/c she isn’t especially red, so either I snatched her up quicker than I thought or less spilled on her than I thought. There was plenty on the floor and stove though, so I dunno.

Scary stuff! She’s fine now, so no worries, but this could have been really *awful*

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I can’t win with this cleaning thing

26 August 2006 By Leave a Comment

You know how I posted I vacuumed? I just did it again. More breadcrumbs. Prolly my own fault for leaving them out again.

In better news, we looked at new cars today, so we could get out from under our current payment. The van we looked at (Chevy Venture) didn’t suit our needs. I am actually hoping to find an SUV we all fit in instead of a van. Or a large car, like a wagon or something. We also looked at a Cavalier for Michael. His dad is going to keep that on the lot for a bit, because if a vehicle does come in to suit our needs, yay for us. That means I’ll get a car, he’ll get a car, and all for less than we currently pay on one car. It sucks that van wasn’t quite right. There is virtually no leg room in the back seat, so the boys wouldn’t have been ok back there. Otherwise it was great. It’s a shame really.

My dad said mom isn’t so hot these days. She had a bad morning. Said the day got better though. I wonder when I’ll be going down there now. If we keep the current van, I may have to go down for othe purposes before October 1st, which would give me a great “excuse” to go down and check on everyone and not worry her. We’ll see. My MIL will probably be driving down with me, and my dad said he could fly her back up if it looked like it would be extended (beyond a few days). The question we all have is, if I do come down, and it looks like she’s fine, how long do I stay? How long is reasonable? A week? A  month? Six weeks? Where do you draw the line? I worry if I go, and come back, I wont be able to go when I really have to. I worry he’ll call too late and I wont make it down anyway. If we drive straight through it’s about 20 hours IIRC. Call it 24 to account for stops for food and bathroom and to stretch. Call it two days if we wind up stopping over night (more than likely with three kids in the car). What if he waits so long to call, it just happens? We knew with Erin that morning. What if he calls and it’s that day? He said he’d fly us down, but OMG the airfare for same day last minute for four seats? Plus the drive to Pittsburgh to save a little money rather than fly out from PKB.

I need to stop borrowing worries, eh?

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so…..

5 December 2005 By Leave a Comment

my mom has a full body scan last week, and her cancer spread to her right lung and stomach. my dad is all dire and thinks (based on the paper work) she wont last a year. but then in the same breathe says she might surprise us all, but she is definitely worse off than she was a year ago.

they are changing up her drugs again to try and get it, but it sounds like they are not operating at all anymore. it spread via her lymph system, so it’s kind of stupid to operate when it’ll spread more anyway.

he says not to base our plans on this, i agree, but…. i spent the past five years basing my plans around “when” not “what if” and this is just another “when”

when she dies, who is going to take care of the twins and my dad? when she dies… i don’t want the next time i see her to be at her funeral, you know?

i also don’t need a ton of posts like the ones i wrote the other day to nora, saying not to borrow worries. i’m not borrowing them, i already know what the outcome is. i just don’t know when. i hate not knowing when.

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Oak Meadow

18 October 2005 By Leave a Comment

We got the box!! Did I post already? Bah. We had to take Chai and Esh to the doc this am. Chai has an ear infection. Dorian is getting over having them constantly (not nearly as bad as mine were but bad enough) so I guess it’s Malachai’s turn. I had her listen to Esha s well since she’s congested, but it’s upper respitory, so no worries.

Fough with Chai to take his meds. This’ll be a fun 10 days. Fish is taking him back on the first or a check up. I don’t get back till the second. I hope Esh clears up before we fly!

Back to OM! I have read about 30 of the 45 introduction pages in the curriculum book itself. I am pretty pleased with it. I just wrote this back to a friend of mine who asked about it:

Dor knows a lot it too, but not all, so it’s a good starting point for us, and it has so much more than just ABC and 1 – 10. Oh, the teacher books and story books are for grade k – 3, the curriculum book is only K (in other words, for grade 1- 3 you would only be purchasing the curriculum book, not the additional books).

I’ve been reading the introduction in the curric book and I am so excited to start in November. Dorian is all about starting now, but I need time to read the books and get situated. It’s separated into 36 weeks, one letter per week for 3 weeks, and then one week of all three letters. Plus science, language arts, etc… The basis seems to be (from what I read this morning) include them in your day as the learning experience. It’s very unschooling, in a structured way, if that makes sense. It has set things to do in the day, but the program itself is very child-led. If they don’t want to do A, that’s fine, do something else.

So that isn’t everything in the intro, but it just covers so much. I am going to take the time to reread it (I did more than skim, but less than involved reading this morning) as well as the other two or three books I need to read.

There is also a whole health book that is a curriculum unto itself, as well as a crafts book.

We made a cover for his work book, it just says Dorian Jxxxxxxx/2004-2005/Book One/[picture of tree of life] (the picture seemed fitting) The work is all done in the book or pasted into the book, so it’s like a little quarterly scrapbook when you’re done, which is awesome in it’s own right. There is a second book for leaves, seeds, nature things basically. We picked up four books at Pearls for 5$ each, so we saved a bit there.

I have some other stuff to do, so I’ll write some more later.

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