oh, i forgot

malachai walked across the living room last night pushing a push or ride car (yep, the one we got from you mandy when you moved what, 2 years ago? wow, time flies when life sucks you dry) so anyway, it was the first time he really walked (holding onto something) other than cruising around my grammas glass table a couple weeks ago.

it was cool.

it’s beautiful

i got my mama’s day gift last night. because said he got it early and asked if i wanted it. so i asked if i got it now do i get another one in a couple of weeks? lol anyway, it?s a handmade silver bead bracelet w/ dorian & malachais names. i should take a piccy of it, but i am too lazy. it has dorians name on one strand, and malachais on another on those square letter beads, with pretty blue beads on either side and the rest silver. it’s neat. i guess i will take a pic eventually.

bored meme

Five details about you…
[x] i hate typing with capital letters. I will use them when need be.
[x] i am 100% on-the-fence bisexual. really.
[x] i love un-sweetened iced-tea. i just thought i would throw that out there.
[x] i love my sister. maybe more than i love myself. but i don’t show it often.
[x] my eyes are so dark brown they are almost black. but they have green & gold flecks in them if you look close enough.

Five details about your appearance right now…
[x] i am wearing a demon shirt i traded something for back in 10th grade.
[x] my hair is in a french braid. yep, it finally grew out enough. now to resist the urge to hack it off again.
[x] i am wearing my sapphire replacement engagement ring, my silver wedding band, my steel ring, and my blue topaz bat mitzvah ring.
[x] i have no underpants on.
[x] i also have no socks on.

Five things you did today
[x] i worked on the PJS site.
[x] i gave malachai a bath this morning.
[x] i made lunch.
[x] i watched monsters inc for the zillionth time.
[x] i drank iced tea. but fuck it all, it was pre-sweetened *grump*

Five things that everyone should know about you…
[x] i can be flaky.
[x] i always keep to my word. even if i keep to it late.
[x] i used to write a lot. and damnit, i was good!
[x] i am a mom before i am anything else.
[x] but i will always be ME

Five favorite groups…
[x] OpIvy
[x] Rancid (heh, saw that one coming, did ya?)
[x] specials
[x] misfits
[x] any other old punk or ska band….. but i will listen to most anything

Five favorite songs… (in no order)
[x] see above groups, pick any song
[x]
[x]
[x]
[x]

Five favorite movies…
[x] heathers
[x] princess bride
[x] oh brother where art thou
[x] labyrinth
[x] bad 80′s b movies

Five things that make you happy…
[x] my family & friends (really one in the same)
[x] when my kids do something new that i helped them learn
[x] getting all dressed up for no reason
[x] random shit that even i don?t always understand
[x] spirals

Five people who mean a lot to you
[x] fish
[x] mandy

[x] piXy

[x] matt
[x] andi

five things that disgust you
[x] censorship of any kind
[x] on choice days, our government (but truly, i wouldn’t want to live anywhere else long-term)
[x] anything that grows green stuff on it
[x] bugs, when there?s enough to look like an entire colony/swarm/whatever, but a few here and there don’t bother me
[x] bad parents

Five things that impress you…
[x] anyone with talent
[x] dedication
[x] true love
[x] awesome tattoo work
[x] intelligence

Five things that don’t impress you…
[x] stupidity
[x] permanent apathy
[x] flaunting of anything
[x] bank account size
[x]

Five things you cant live without…
[x] oxygen, food, water oh, you meant other stuff?
[x] the slings
[x] computer
[x] phone
[x] stuff

fucking hospital

well, this morning, dr. waters (erin’s primary physician) said we were looking at thursday or friday to bring her home.

wait for it………….

ah, there’s the other shoe!

she was on oxygen (still is i guess) because her O2 levels were down and her CO2 levels were up. her breathing is fucked (it always has been tho…… ) so they are bringing in the pulmonary doctor later on. mom is staying until that doctor gets in. i can?t remember what she said they were doing.

i think i have whatever everyone else in the house had now. i am waiting for my mom to talk to the pharmacist to see if i can even take an antibiotic, and if so, which one, so mom can get a script for it.

and i fucked my back up yesterday. i cannot do anything involving the right side of my body, for it make my left side ache. a lot. like a stabbing wound. but they leave the knife in and put another one in after.

i bought pants last night. i got a size 14, that were a little big, but fit comfortably. motherfucker, i remember being a size 2. not that i ever will be ever again mind you, hips and all, but fuck, a 14? i went over to the boys size and got some 34′s that situate themselves nicely over said hips and a re baggy and loose, just like i like them. we got dorian and malachai some cargo pants (soooo cute!) and michael got some pants as well.

well, i have to go take care of the boys, all three of them *grins*

Monday morning update?

erin is back in the in the hospital, but should be home tomorrow. she has a hole about the size of a shot glass in her leg, that started from her bone and grew out. the doctor came in and got the dead skin out and said it looked better.

they think she is coming home tomorrow, they need to find a hospital bed for her to come home in, b/c she obviously can’t sit in her chair.

i think my mom needs to hold the doctor liable, because she oversaw the making of the chair, but we will see. even if it is just documented, you know?

malachai is standing more and more on his own, letting go of whatever he pulled himself up on…… my baby is growing up :(

i have some great new business op’s going on, can’t wait to put some orders in and get going on them!