Happy 4 year hand-fasting anniversary love! Holy shit, it has indeed been that long. Scary.
Happy Ostara everyone else!
07 February 2004
7 February 2004 By
So my eBay stuff isn’t going. I am not surprised, but I am disappointed. I really could have used that money.
Today was an odd sort o day.
My dad came over tonight to visit, which is always nice. I love my dad, but I have always been a “daddy’s girl” I suppose. We had a nice chat. I am getting a chunk of change from him from his taxes (he claimed the boys this year b/c of their health insurance, and he is giving us part of his refund for them.) He is also giving us some cash from Erin’s life insurance. I feel very wrong in taking even the little bit we are getting, but it is going to pay for our airfare up for her unveiling….. so is it still awful to take it? I mean, I know it isn’t awful in and of itself, I just feel that I am not entitled to any of it, I suppose. I parented her for years, but I was not her parent. I don’t know. It’s a jumble in my head.
He said he was going to go home and look depressed before mom got home. She ahs been spending a ton of time at the synagogue since Erin died, and slightly before as well, if I remember correctly. Dad said he was going to accuse her of joining a religious cult, that way he doesn’t have to pay alimony. Yes, he is kidding. I love his sense of humour. I better, I got it from him *laughs* But she seriously is spending so much time there. She spent the night last night, it was Shabbatone (I may have spelled that wrong, maybe it is two words, Shabbat-Tone?). She dropped the twins off at home early this morning, and picked them back up around 3 to go back. She should be home soon. I guess if she finds comfort in it, but I feel bad for my dad. He does not go to synagogue unless he absolutely has to. He doe snot find comfort in it. I hope he finds comfort in something. I spent a lot of time with him before and after her death. I think my mom should have been the one to do so. I still try to get him to come over more often, so he isn’t just sitting in his room, but he usually says no. I was glad he accepted my offer tonight.
Malachai has a nasty looking cut on his finger from a soda can. He got into the recycle bag. It isn’t infected, but it is on the inside of his pinky finger (who named the fingers, by the way??) and that spot isn’t exactly prone to a) keeping on band aids or b) not getting stuff on/in it.
I picked up the Hylands Kids Kit from Whole Foods. It’s a homeopathic med kit. Fantastic little thing to have in the house. I am pleased with it so far. Chai has both bottom molars coming in, so he is a miserable little wretch. Gave him some Chamo
milla & Belladonna and he was a happy little nursling again. I know, you al think I’m nuts, and that it is all in my head. And I fully admit that it might be in my head when I use the remedies on me, but the boys don’t know what it is/what it’s for, and it works almost instantaneously, so who knows.
So yah. That’s whats up.
25 January 2004
25 January 2004 By
xmlns:st1="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags"
xmlns="http://www.w3.org/TR/REC-html40">
Bold=Actually read at least 80% of it
Italics=Listened to the audio book (alone or in combination with
reading)
Red=was supposed to read it, never did, but did
well on the test anyway
ALL CAPS=READ THE CLIFF’S NOTES
Underline=Never read, but understand content
enough for prolonged discussion.
*=Own a copy
+=Saw the movie, play, Masterpiece Theater version, etc.
!=Can produce a sufficiently entertaining anecdote about it to fool people at
parties into thinking I read it
1. The
Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien*+
2. Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen*|
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
4. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams*+
5. Harry Potter and the
Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling*
6. To Kill A?Mockingbird, Harper Lee*+
7. Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne*+
8. Nineteen Eighty-Four,
George Orwell*+
9. The
Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, CS Lewis+
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte**
11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller+
12.
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
15. The Catcher In The
16. The Wind in the
Willows, Kenneth Grahame+
17. Great
Expectations, Charles Dickens
18. Little Women, Louisa May Alcott+
19. Captain Corelli’s Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres
20. War and Peace, Leo
Tolstoy!*
21. Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell+
22. Harry Potter And The Sorcerer’s Stone, JK Rowling*+
23. Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling*+
24. Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling*
25. The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien*+
26. Tess Of The D’Urbervilles, Thomas
Hardy
27. Middlemarch, George Eliot,
28. A Prayer For Owen Meany,
John Irving
29. The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck
30.
Wonderland, Lewis Carroll*+
31. The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson
32. One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel Garcia
Marquez
33. The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett
34. David Copperfield,
Charles Dickens*
35. Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl+
36.
37. A Town Like Alice, Nevil
Shute
38. Persuasion, Jane Austen
39. Dune, Frank Herbert*+
40. Emma, Jane Austen
41. Anne Of Green Gables, LM Montgomery+
42. Watership Down, Richard Adams+
43. The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald
44. The Count Of
Monte Cristo, Alexandre
Dumas*+
45. Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh
46. Animal Farm, George Orwell*+
47. A Christmas Carol, Charles Dickens+
48.
Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy+!
49. Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian
50. The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher
51. The
52. Of Mice And Men, John Steinbeck+
53. The Stand, Stephen
King*+
54.
Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy
55. A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth
56. The BFG, Roald Dahl
57. Swallows And Amazons, Arthur Ransome
58. Black Beauty, Anna
Sewell*
59. Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer
60. Crime < span class=GramE>And Punishment,
Fyodor Dostoyevsky*
61. Noughts And Crosses, Malorie
Blackman
62. Memoirs Of
A Geisha, Arthur Golden
63. A Tale Of Two Cities, Charles Dickens*
64. The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough+
65. Mort,
Terry Pratchett
66. The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blyton
67. The Magus, John Fowles* (But I HAVE read The
Magus by Francis Barrett)
68. Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman*
69. Guards! Guards!,
Terry Pratchett
70. Lord Of The Flies, William Golding*+
71. Perfume, Patrick Suskind
72. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists,
Robert Tressell
73. Night Watch, Terry Pratchett
74. Matilda, Roald Dahl*+
75. Bridget Jones’s Diary, Helen Fielding
76. The Secret History, Donna Tartt
77. The Woman In White, Wilkie
Collins
78. Ulysses, James Joyce
79. Bleak House, Charles Dickens
80. Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson
81. The Twits, Roald Dahl
82. I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith
83. Holes, Louis Sachar +
84. Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake
85. The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy
86. Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson
87. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley*
88. Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons+
89. Magician, Raymond E Feist
90. On The Road, Jack Kerouac
91. The Godfather, Mario Puzo+!
92. The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M Auel*+
93. The Colour
Of Magic, Terry Pratchett-*
94. The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho
95. Katherine, Anya Seton
96. Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer
97. Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel Garcia
Marquez
98. Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson
99. The Princess Diaries, Meg Cabot +
100.
101. Three Men In A Boat, Jerome K. Jerome
102. Small Gods, Terry Pratchett
103. The Beach, Alex Garland
104. Dracul
a, Bram Stoker*+
105. Point Blanc, Anthony Horowitz
106. The Pickwick Papers, Charles Dickens
107. Stormbreaker, Anthony Horowitz
108. The Wasp Factory, Iain Banks
109. The Day Of The Jackal, Frederick Forsyth+
110. The Illustrated Mum, Jacqueline Wilson
111. Jude The Obscure, Thomas Hardy
112. The Secret Diary Of Adrian Mole Aged 13?, Sue Townsend
113. The Cruel Sea, Nicholas Monsarrat
114. Les Miserables, Victor Hugo*+
115. The Mayor Of Casterbridge,
Thomas Hardy
116. The Dare Game, Jacqueline Wilson
117. Bad Girls, Jacqueline Wilson
118. The Picture Of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde*+ (Do I get extra points for my
eldest child being named after Mr. Gray?)
119. Shogun, James Clavell+
120. The Day Of The Triffids,
John Wyndham+
121. Lola Rose, Jacqueline Wilson
122. Vanity Fair, William Makepeace Thackeray
123. The Forsyte Saga, John
Galsworthy+
124. House Of Leaves, Mark Z. Danielewski
125. The Poisonwood Bible, Barbara Kingsolver
126. Reaper Man, Terry Pratchett
127. Angus, Thongs And Full-Frontal Snogging, Louise Rennison
128. The Hound Of
The Baskervilles, Arthur Conan Doyle*+
129. Possession, A. S. Byatt
130. The Master And Margarita, Mikhail Bulgakov! (But I am extremely familiar with the painting by
Giger)
131. The Handmaid’s Tale, Margaret Atwood
132. Danny The Champion Of The World, Roald Dahl
133. East Of Eden, John Steinbeck
134. George’s Marvellous Medicine, Roald Dahl
135. Wyrd
Sisters, Terry Pratchett
136. The Color Purple, Alice Walker+
137. Hogfather, Terry Pratchett
138. The Thirty-Nine Steps, John Buchan
139. Girls In Tears, Jacqueline Wilson
140. Sleepovers, Jacqueline Wilson
141. All Quiet On The Western Front, Erich
Maria Remarque
142. Behind The Scenes At The Museum, Kate Atkinson
143. High Fidelity, Nick Hornby+
144. It, Stephen King*+
145. James And The Giant Peach, Roald Dahl+
146. The Green Mile, Stephen King+
147. Papillon, Henri Charriere+
148. Men At Arms, Terry Pratchett
149. Master And Commander, Patrick O’Brian
150. Skeleton Key, Anthony Horowitz
151. Soul Music, Terry Pratchett
152. Thief Of Time, Terry Pratchett
153. The Fifth Elephant, Terry Pratchett
154. Atonement, Ian McEwan
155. Secrets, Jacqueline Wilson
156. The Silver Sword, Ian Serraillier
157. One Flew Over The
Cuckoo’s Nest, Ken Kesey*+
158. Heart Of Darkness,
Joseph Conrad+
159. Kim, Rudyard Kipling
160. Cross Stitch, Diana Gabaldon
161. Moby Dick, Herman Melville*+
162. River God, Wilbur Smith
163. Sunset Song, Lewis Grassic Gibbon
164. The Shipping News, Annie Proulx
165. The World
According To Garp, John Irving*+
166. Lorna Doone, R. D. Blackmore
167. Girls Out Late, Jacqueline Wilson
168. The Far Pavilions, M. M. Kaye
169. The Witches, Roald Dahl+
170.
171. FRANKENSTEIN, Mary Shelley*+
172.
They Used To Play On Grass, Terry Venables and Gordon
Williams
173. The Old Man And The Sea, Ernest Hemingway
174. The Name Of The Rose, Umberto Eco*+
175. Sophie’s World, Jostein Gaarder
176. Dustbin Baby, Jacqueline Wilson
177. Fantastic Mr Fox, Roald
Dahl
178. Lolita, Vladimir Nabokov+!
179. Jonathan
Livingstone Seagull, Richard Bach
180. The Little Prince, Antoine De Saint-Exupery
181. The Suitcase Kid, Jacqueline Wilson
182. Oliver Twist, Charles Dickens*
183. The Power Of One, Bryce Courtenay
184. Silas Marner, George Eliot
185. American Psycho,
Bret
186. The Diary Of A Nobody, George and Weedon Grossmith
187. Trainspotting,
Welsh+!
188. Goosebumps, R. L. Stine
189. Heidi, Johanna Spyri
190. Sons And Lovers, D. H. Lawrence
191. The Unbearable Lightness of Being,
192. Man And Boy, Tony Parsons
193. The Trut
h, Terry Pratchett
194. The War Of The Worlds, H. G.
Wells*+
195. The Horse Whisperer, Nicholas Evans
196. A Fine Balance, Rohinton Mistry
197. Witches Abroad, Terry Pratchett
198. The Once And Future
King, T. H. White
199. The Very Hungry Caterpillar, Eric Carle (WTF?
My son has it!)*
200. Flowers In
The Attic, Virginia Andrews
16 January 2004
16 January 2004 By
Wow, I could get used to this paid every other week thing. Oh, wait. I have to. Good thing I like those big numbers in the checking account lol
no real update from me. just doing house stuff, i guess. put a bunch of stuff up on eBay, nothing major sold. fuck em. i put it back up on PJS. Go check it out. http://www.pjserendipity.com i am cleaning out my inventory, and i will be putting a major order in with pretty baby, so keep an eye on it.
08 January 2004
8 January 2004 By
my heart aches for some people today. I don’t know why.
crucifiedboy, vanian, nobody, briana, and a host of other characters I knew and loved.
Maybe today is the day I mourn and put to rest what I had and press on to what I have? I thought I had done it, but I obviously haven’t.
