i am tired a lot. we had dorian’s party today. it was tiring *laughs*

he got scooby gang bendies, a motorcycle, a car, and a trike that is too big for him. damn thing says 1.5 – 4 years, it’s a 10″ bike. *sigh* have to get wood blocks to make the peddles closer lol but he is so all about having a bike! too cute. we took pics, will post them once they are developed and scanned in.

michael is sick *sigh* it’s been a good while since he has been whiney, coughing sick. so it’s ok. i just hate to be like, suck it up, but i have to deal with a whiney toddler all day and a crying (well, not all the time like it was) baby. i wish i had the patience to baby him when he is sick (b/c i know i made him baby me when i wasn’t feeling well) but i am at the end of my rope most days, he is supposed to catch me, not the other way round lol

ok, i don’t mean it like that, i can’t really explain it. i mean, he busts his ass to work and provide what he can right now, and be able to do better later, and will be busting his ass more after next week at school too, to provide for us later, so i try to do as much as i can at home for the kids and to keep the room clean (and clean it too) but there are just some things i cannot do alone (like put his stuff away where he can find it/i can remember where i put it!)

mandy asked if you ever think about your ex, just like, where they are, etc… i can’t say i do… i think about my current and our future and where we have been in the past 4 or so years, and where we will be in the next 40 or so. and it makes me happy, because i know that we already survived what would have been an ugly breakup or divorce for most couples. so we made it over the hurdle, it’s smooth (well, choppy maybe lol) sailing from here on in.