Michael and I had a handfasting, performed by friends and it was lovely. My family wasn’t there… my family barely knew about it. I wore huge black jeans, and a black tee and boots. It was very… us… ten years ago. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

Then the next year, we had a court house ceremony. It was paid for by a friend, accompanied by her, and one other friend, and Dorian (um, and embryo Mal). It took less than twenty minutes, Michael went to work right after and I went home. I don’t remember what I wore… I think I wore my friends (one who wasn’t there) wedding dress (which was just a dress, it was from her… second wedding IIRC), he wore his work suit.

Two years ago, I had a friend (who I don’t really talk to anymore b/c we’re too different) tell me she wanted to have a proper Jewish wedding for me at the shul, and it never happened.

Now? I don’t really want to have a wedding. My mom wont be there. My dad wont care (he hates going to shul, for any reason whatsoever). No one will be here to be frilly with  me or get excited, so whatever, you know?

I am really looking forward to Sara getting married. I’ve never even been to a “proper” wedding that I can remember. I am looking forward to experiencing it. Eshiva too, but Sara is a bit closer lol

I have been thinking, for a while, that Michael and I might see about renewing our handfasting in 2010, but seeing as we aren’t near enough to anyone to do the ceremony, it probably will not happen. I think we might try to go on a vacation instead.

Just rambling I suppose.