well, as it turns out, the tumor wasn’t as small as it thought it was. and the radiologist came up today to talk to her about the radiology reports. and they are planning to start chemo next week. dad is going down to find out exactly what is up, if they found more cancer when they sampled the lymph nodes, or if it is purely preventative. i said i’d go buy her some hair. (come on, what else do you say? esp. when you are me) and i got the finger. at least it means she is in fairly good spirits.

dad isn’t doing so well. his father (my pe-pa) died of stomach cancer. they gave him 3 months. he lasted 2 years. by the end, they hoped he would just give up and die, he was in so much pain.

i don’t know what to think now. as i said to mom, she has to be better by the end of august, she has another grandbabe to meet and play with.

so anyway, like i kinda expected, it landed on me to keep it together, since my dad is a mess (not that he’d show it, but i just know he is) and mom is being mom. such is my life i guess. if the gods didn’t think i could handle it, i wouldn’t be given it, but i wish it would stop coming all at once.