meme

1. Where did you take your default pic?
I made it. The photo itself was taken at Whole Addiction.

2.What are you wearing right now?
A Clash tee and jeans

3. What is your current problem?
Money. Always money. If I can’t pick money? Im pretty good right now. We could use a second car, but that’s not a *problem*, just inconvenient.

4. What makes you most happy?
Michael. I married him because made me remember how to laugh, and after over 10 years now of laughter, he still does. Awwwww

5. What’s the name of the song that you’re listening to?
No music right now.

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Totally selfish post

But I need to make a new one, because I am in a new secret swap. Ok, I am running the swap, and I know who is sending to me, but I am in the process of forgetting, so I am surprised too! So, in an effort to have one concise, this is who I am post, here it is.
What I am… I am a mom, a daughter, a sister, a wife, and all the things those roles define. I act as an accountant, a chef (gourmet and diner varieties), a maid, a washing woman, seamstress, personal shopper, and any other menial household task you can think of. I am also a taxi service on occasion as well as a nurse.

Now that I have (somewhat) defined my role, here is who I am (on this day)… I enjoy knitting and spinning. I like bowling. I like reading and writing. I am a web and graphic designer by trade, and I do that in my spare time. I co-own and operate Punky Moms, the rockin’est (is that a word? It is now!) parenting forum out there. I spend way more time there than is probably healthy, but I seriously love it and couldn’t think of a better way to spend my spare time. And all my other time. And time that doesn’t exist yet. I like to think I can sew and do all sorts of other crafty things, but in reality, there isn’t any time left over for it.

I am in love with home  and unschooling, but I am sending my boys to school this year. We’ll see what happens next year. I can’t really afford the school they go to, and we got a great scholarship, but I don’t expect it to last forever. I also love homebirth and unassisted pregnancy and birthing. I hate doctors in almost any capacity except true emergency. I like all natural stuff, herb-lore, and avoiding western medicine if at all possible.

I love coffee. Not high priced Starbucks stuff (although it is a nice treat) but good, fresh ground home-brewed goodness. With lots of cream. I adore heavy whipping cream. Probably too much. I try to eat organic whenever possible, but I will purchase and eat local before I do organic (if possible).

I enjoy baking, and love kitchen gadgets. I am trying to convert my husband from a PC to a Mac.

I have lots of tattoos (13) and big ears. My lobes are stretched to 5/8 of an inch, my conches are a 10g, my tragii are a 10g and I have a nifty ~6g hole in my helix (it was a 2g).

I have a general wishlist posted here: http://azxuredawn.com/publicate/wishful/

I am a stay at home mom.

I live in South Florida, where it’s hot all the time. I love Disney. I love Warner Bros. too, but I am a Disney girl through and through, so it works out that we get to go a bunch of times a year! I grew up in Maryland. I love Ocean City, or at least my memories of it.

Hm… I can’t think of anything else right now. If my secret pal wants to know anything inparticular, just drop me an email!

Today we

signed Dorian & Malachai back up for school.  I was doing some reading this morning, and found out that K is compulsory for the state of Florida, and I was essentially too late to send in a Notice of Intention (I could get around it because of the move, but I am not prepared for a portfolio review or testing of K skills) to the Board of Ed.

So we got everyone dressed and drove down to HACS to see if we could get a scholarship again this year, or if I had to go deal with the local public school.

We spoke with Rabbi Denberg (who I have a fundamental difference of opinion with, but is a really nice guy) who asked what we could afford per month. I said give me a number, he said no, give me a number. This went back and forth, and I said, well, what would it cost. After the heart attack (it’s more than the mortgage on the house to send both boys, wtf?) I said well, this month I can give you X and I said we can re-address it next month. This was after telling him today, I have 31 dollars. Period. He said he wouldn’t take our last 31$, and the number I gave him was fine for Nov. and we’ll discuss it again once we get settled in a bit. They gave me four shirts for Dorian (we gave his to the school last year when we pulled him out) but I realized we’ll need to see if we can exchange one for a short sleeve or see how much they cost. If I can get my embroudery machine up and running, I think I can make them myself (after buying the shirts, but three of the four were just Old Navy child button downs).

That went a lot smoother than I anticipated. I honestly thought they would say no, and that would be that.It’s one of the reasons I love the Jewish community. They want the kids there, the classes are smaller than public school and it’s nice. I am not forgetting the issues we had last year (why we pulled him) but I am hoping they aren’t issues this year.

He even said he could walk Malachai to his class, and then go to his class himself! Last year someone, anyone but me, had to take him into class and basically coerce him into staying. He freaked. So we’ll see how it goes. He starts next Monday, which gives us a week to get his stuff together and get used to waking up early enough to be there on time.

We went to Target to get him a costume. He is a devil, pitchfork and all. He’s very excited about it lol  He also got new shoes (size 1.5!), socks, and a new nightlight (hey, I think it was Lisa who posted about it, so thanks! We got the same skully one. I wanted the purple pumpkin, but the boys liked the skull). Oh, and M got a piranha game, since D got a game when M got a costume, and I promised him a game when D got a costume. Damn that long term memory!

So I am kind of bummed that both my boys are going back to school, and I’ll be home alone with Shivie but on the other hand, I am glad, because the HS group I am with isn’t so much into co-op learning as it is park days. I plan to keep up with them, but this is better all around, I think. Or at least I am telling myself. We’ll see how it pans out financially. They’ll be taking lunch, so I think our only output is a small amount for tuition, but there is also gas and all. It at least keeps us on the right side of the fence regarding school for D next year if he goes to public first grade, keeps us in good with the school if he stays at HACS for first, and it gets us all into a good schedule.

I really wish I had someone to tell me it’s the right thing to do though. Mom stood be hind me 100% no matter what I chose, and so does Michael. My dad didn’t care, so long as it didn’t cause problems, and when I read we needed K, I kind of freaked, and my first thought was HACS, so I know it’s not the *wrong* choice. We’ve both been weighing the pros and cons, and it stays sort of balanced.

We have all got to live and learn.

On the road again

It looks like we will be relocating to South Florida. WV just didn’t work out. We are not able to make enough money in the strangled economy this state has to pay our bills let alone have enough to buy frivolous luxuries like food. So, in just over 2 weeks we will schlep the family and all of our shit back to the space we were in before.

So for those who we wanted to get together with, I am sorry. Maybe you will find your way to SoFl one day. We’ll be back in MD in September-ish of next year, and in late October for a wedding.

I’m in Florida

We left at about 9 pm on the 4th, we arrived at about 4 pm on the 5th. Long ass drive. Long.

Mom doesn’t look so hot. The doc cancelled chemo the past two weeks, and for today. Dad told her he put it off till tomorrow, but thinks he has to tell her he just isn’t bothering. I think he should discuss giving her a fluid/vitamin push in lieu of chemo, just so she feels a little better, with the doc. I’ll talk to him about it today.

The cancer has metastesized everywhere. Lymph system spread it. It’s hit the liver, so that’s that. She’s taking 5 – 6 mL of morphine every couple of hours it seems.

So whether are playing the waiting game, or if she is going to magically recover, we’ll see. My aunt and uncle are flying down today, and picking up my local aunt & uncle and going up to my gram & zaide’s to tell them this is it.

My dad is a mess. I don’t know. I am down here for the duration. Then it’ll be a mad drive for MD (I am so not looking fwd to that!).  Michael said if need be, he has a job down here. My dad said he can’t afford to move us back. I said we’ll see what needs to be done. Dad said his problems will be entirely different. Yes, dealing with his own mourning and depression, and that of two 14.5 year olds? I think he’ll need a hand or three. So we’ll see what we have to do.

I am not posting to PM’s (for those who are wondering why I am not), I do not want fifty replies from people I don’t know saying “I’m so sorry!”  Most of them are not the gals who have been there for the past almost five years in some cases, and I am not interested in false compasion.