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We’ll go forward from this moment
by Leonard Pitts Jr.
The Miami Herald

It’s my job to have something to say.

They pay me to provide words that help make sense of that which
troubles the American soul. But in this moment of airless shock when hot
tears sting disbelieving eyes, the only thing I can find to say, the only
words that seem to fit, must be addressed to the unknown author of this
suffering.

You monster. You beast. You unspeakable bastard.

What lesson did you hope to teach us by your coward’s attack on our
World Trade Center, our Pentagon, us? What was it you hoped we would learn?

Whatever it was, please know that you failed.

Did you want us to respect your cause? You just damned your cause.

Did you want to make us fear? You just steeled our resolve.

Did you want to tear us apart? You just brought us together.

Let me tell you about my people. We are a vast and quarrelsome
family, a family rent by racial, social, political and class division, but
a family nonetheless. We’re frivolous, yes, capable of expending tremendous
emotional energy on pop cultural minutiae — a singer’s revealing dress, a
ball team’s misfortune, a cartoon mouse. We’re wealthy, too, spoiled by the
ready availability of trinkets and material goods, and maybe because of
that, we walk through life with a certain sense of blithe entitlement. We
are fundamentally decent, though — peace-loving and compassionate. We
struggle to know the right thing and to do it. And we are, the overwhelming
majority of us, people of faith, believers in a just and loving God.

Some people — you, perhaps — think that any or all of this makes us
weak. You’re mistaken. We are not weak. Indeed, we are strong in ways that
cannot be measured by arsenals.

IN PAIN
Yes, we’re in pain now. We are in mourning and we are in shock. We’re
still grappling with the unreality of the awful thing you did, still
working to make ourselves understand that this isn’t a special effect from
some Hollywood blockbuster, isn’t the plot development from a Tom Clancy
novel.

Both in terms of the awful scope of their ambition and the probable
final death toll, your attacks are likely to go down as the worst acts of
terrorism in the history of the United States and, probably, the history of
the world.
You’ve bloodied us as we have never been bloodied before.

But there’s a gulf of difference between making us bloody and making
us fall. This is the lesson Japan was taught to its bitter sorrow the last
time anyone hit us this hard, the last time anyone brought us such abrupt
and monumental pain. When roused, we are righteous in our outrage, terrible
in our force. When provoked by this level of barbarism, we will bear any
suffering, pay any cost, go to any length, in the pursuit of justice.

I tell you this without fear of contradiction. I know my people, as
you, I think, do not. What I know reassures me. It also causes me to
tremble with dread of the future.

In the days to come, there will be recrimination and accusation,
fingers pointing to determine whose failure allowed this to happen and what
can be done to prevent it from happening again. There will be heightened
security, misguided talk of revoking basic freedoms. We’ll go forward from
this moment sobered, chastened, sad. But determined, too. Unimaginably
determined.

THE STEEL IN US

You see, the steel in us is not always readily apparent. That aspect
of our character is seldom understood by people who don’t know us well. On
this day, the family’s bickering is put on hold. As Americans we will
weep, as Americans we will mourn, and as Americans, we will rise in defense
of all that we cherish.

So I ask again: What was it you hoped to teach us? It occurs to me
that maybe you just wanted us to know the depths of your hatred. If that’s
the case, consider the message received. And take this message in exchange:

You don’t know my people. You don’t know what we’re capable of. You
don’t know what you just started.
But you’re about to le
arn.

stupid questionnaire thingie…

~**Personal**~
1. Your name: jenn
2. Do you like your name?: no
3. If not, what would you change it to?: azxure
4. Your age: 21
5. Do you wish you were younger/older?: yes
6. If so, what age, and how come?: like i said, yes.
7. What school are you going to?: school of hard knocks
8. Where is that school located?: everywhere
9. Do you get along with your parents?: when i don’t live with them
10. Do you get along with your siblings?: eh

~**Friends**~
11. Do you have a best friend?: yes, lots
12. Why is that person your best friend?: because
13. By the way, who is this person?:
14. Do you trust your friends?: yes
15. Who is one person that you could totally tell anything to?: erin
16. Name one person that you used to be friends with, that you wish you could be friends with now: no clue
17. Why did that friendship end?:
18. What qualities do you like that your friends have?: they are fun
19. Do you think you have good friends?: yes
20. If you could give your best friend (or closest friend) one thing, what would it be?: everything

~**Relationships**~
21. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes
22. What is their name?: fish
23. Are you seeing anyone?:
24. What is their name?:
25. Do you have a crush on anyone?: lots of people *grins*
26. What is their name?: well, if i told then the cat would be out of the bag and it’s be weird
27. If any of the questioned are answered, why do you like the person you are with/have a crush on?: because they rock
28. Do they have any qualities that you would like to have for yourself?: no
29. How much time do you like to spend with them?: all the time
30. Where they your friend before you started dating/liking them?: yes

~**Favorites**~
31. Color?: blue, silver, purple, black, vermilion, in that order
32. Shampoo?: lots of different ones
33. Deodorant?: ditto
34. Actor?: ed norton
35. Actress?: angelina jolie as a blond
36. Sandwich?: shrimp salad on rye
37. Bread?: wheat
38. Animal?: english mastiff
39: Animals in general: men
40. Food?: anything foreign

~**Either or**~
41. White or Dark Chocolate?: white
42. Stuffed Animal or Blanket?: both?
43. Waterbed or regular mattress?: regular mattress
44. Morning or Night?: night
45. Disney or Nick?: disney
46. Scary or Comedy?: both
47. Get up early or sleep the day away?: sleep, but i am usually up early
48. Job or School?: stay at home mom!
49. Phone or Internet?: internet
50. Garlic or French bread?: french, if it is fresh

~!!What time is it?!!~

8.05 pm

~**With or Without**~
Subject: Hamburger
51. Lettuce?: yah
52. Mustard?: a bit
53. Ketchup?: a bit
54. Mayo?: a bit
55. Onions?: hell yah, extra even
Subject: Perfect date
57. Guy/Gal with braces?: doesn’t matter
58. Candles?: if at home
59. Food?: depends on the planned activities
60. Sporty car?: hm…. that’s a tough one. only if i get t drive it.

~**Yes or No**~
61. Live with your parents?: for now, moving in September
62. Want to live with your parents?: um, no?
63. Have a car?: yah
64. Want a car?: i want another one, but i like mine
65. Would you do the “Survivor” show?: no
66. Would you spend some money on your little/older sibling(s) if you had $1000?: yah
67. Would you eat earthworms if your life depended on it?: sure
68. Would you take a bullet for some of your friends?: um, maybe
69. Do you think that your friends would take a bullet for you?: maybe
70. Do you wish you were famous?: yes

~**WHY**~
71. Why do you think the moon revolves around the earth?: gravity
72. Why was Einstein considered a genius?: because he was… and he was just insane. he rocks
73. Why do some people spend so much time making these stupid surveys?: boredom
74. Why do some people spend so much time filling out these stupid surveys?: because we’re bored
75. Why do you enjoy the company of your friends?: cuz they rock
76. Why are some people accused of “chewing like a cow?: they chew with their mouths open and it’s nasty
78. Why when you leave the door open, you are asked if you were raised in a barn?: barn doors are open lots?
79. Why do women complain so much about the seat being lef
t up, and guys don’t complain when the seat is down?:b/c women fall in, but what, 75% of the time a guy stands? all i have to say is women are multi-orgasmic bay-be!
80. Why do most Americans spend most of their day sitting, and then complain that they are over weight?: b/c we are lazy ass’s

~**Relatives**~
81. Does your grandma still pinch your cheeks?: never did
82. Has any of your relatives bought you clothing that you despised, but you wore, just so they wouldn’t be insulted?: no
83. What nick names did you develop from your relatives?: my hippie uncle larry
84. Which relative could you consider “cool”?: josh, all the way
85. Can you really say that you would go in public with some of your relatives and NOT be embarrassed?: yes
86. Do you have any embarrassing home videos that your relatives have threatened to show on your wedding day?: nope
87. When you started dating people, did the baby pics come out of the closet?: no
88. Have you ever been to a family reunion?: not to speak of
89. What is the most embarrassing moment that you have encountered with your relatives?: *shrugs*
90. Do you have a favorite relative?: josh

~**Friends Part 2**~
91. Do your friends stand differently in your mind?: ????
92. What does “hanging out” consist of?: hanging out
93. How many close friends do you have?: some
94. Do you have one ultimate BEST friend?: yup
95. Why do you consider that person your best friend?: didn’t we go through this already?
96. If you are “taken” at the moment, do you consider your significant other as one of your close friends?: it depends.
97. If you have a crush at the moment, is this person one of your close friends?: yep
98. Do you believe that a relationship will last longer if the person is one of your close friends?: sometimes
99. What is one thing that attracts you to the opposite sex?: initial attraction? if he or she looks good, after i get to talking to them? how smart they are
100. Are you thankful for your friends?: hell yah

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so my mom left me home with sara today, which is fine, but she didn’t take her phone (i am gonna take it away from her, i swear! what good is it if she never takes it with her???) didn’t leave me money to take her out (i don’t get “paid” until michael does, which is Friday) and to top it off the orkin man is coming between 10 and 10.30 (the joys of living in florida! the bug man has to come spray your home with carcinogenic-toxins once a month [or more] to keep the nasties at bay! i HATE this state and am glad to be moving once and for all.) so i have to sit and wait for the orkin man before we can even go out. so i asked sara to watch the boy so i could turn my mattress (he opened two bottles on it, which would have been fine, but i ran out of febreze, so i had to turn it) and now all his toys are cluttering up my already too-cluttered floor, so i am going to clean now.

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ok, it is Sunday. i HATE sundays! never a thing to do. i worked on my wanderings website a bit, but not much. i see that project being completed sometime in December.

i am moving September 13th. we will get to md on dorian’s birthday. my dad is going with us on the auto train to help move, and b/c i needed use of my parents van, it is cheaper than renting a truck. we are hoping to go to williamsburg for a day or two, but it isn’t tied down yet.

i am also leaving to visit for michaels birthday (it was on the 4th) next Tuesday (the 17th) yay! i have been missing him a lot lately, and am very happy to be able t go up for these 2 weeks, and be moving in sept. it is so close now! i can’t believe the boy will be a year old in 2 months!!!