May 11, 2009

Long day yesterday. Culminated in brushing my dreads out. Still brushing them out today. I had them for 23 weeks exactly (that’s just shy of 5 lunar months for those who are mathmatically challanged). I was going to force it to wait a year, but I was getting really frustrated with them. I just kept losing length. My fucking hair was barely past my earlobes. They started out being halfway down my back. That is nearly 3/4 of my full length in shrinkage. I wasn’t loving it and I wasn’t interested in extensions. I have about half of them combed out, and haven’t lost too much length or hair overall (accounting for how much should be in the trash b/c I have almost 6 months worth of hair loss that I am currently combing out). I hope to finish by the end of today so I can do a deep conditioning treatment (my hair actually isn’t in bad shape, yay!) and then see about trimming it so it’s even. I also need to see Chrissy about getting it dyed. Yesterday.

That’s all the news for today (so far).

28 January 2009

click for larger

click for larger

click for larger

click for larger

Sorry for the blur – but red!

I’m not really this pale (I don’t think) – I busted the front screen on my phone and I think it busted my camera too sad.gif

There is actually red, pink and orange, but it’s still wet and you can’t really see it yet.

31 March 2004

I’d like to direct you all back to this post in case any of you missed it. Any suggestions?

Mah Fishie suggested checking out the companies that make swing/rockabilly clothing, which I did, but I still don’t know about the quality,

I still fall between sizes (depending on their size chart, my waist really throws things off regardless of how I compensate for the boobage) so something I could easily put darts in would be nice if it’s a dress… Rambling. Someplace with a fairly lenient return policy if it really and truly doesn’t fit and there is no way to fix that. Someplace that doesn’t *start* in the 50$ range… Tho I might be fucked for that.

Recent developments being what they are with my sewing machine means no sewing for me for a while it looks like. I can’t find anyplace locally to get a replacement part, and I am waiting to hear from the manufacturer, which they outright say could be as long as a week per communication. Imagine that, waiting a full week in the age of immediate gratification. [veruca voice] But I want it now daddy[veruca voice]

Hrm… I am also about to chop my hair off. Dunno how short, and I might actually go have it done. My usual means of doing this is to shave it to 1/4 inch and let it grow a few months. Wont do this time. Then I’m going to bleach it. Then I am going to wait until after Pesach to dye it blue. Why after you ask, when the family ought to be used to me by now? It’s the nice thing to do. I don’t really see them too often, and it has waited this long, it can wait a bit longer.

My senior year of high school I had shaved it, bleached it, and dyed the top half yellow, and “painted” an orange rising sun into the back, rays and all. It was awesome. Right before senior prom. I bought a wig. And thus began my obsession with fake hair.

Ramble ramble ramble

So yah, please point me in a good direction or tried and true places to shop. Seriously, I have nothing against thrifting, MD/DC had some great thrift stores. Down here it’s all crap. I won’t venture down to Miami (or much farther south than Lauderdale) so even if there is anything down that way, I won’t see it.

01 July 2003

they put a force on Erin… that isn’t it’s technical name. it is like your typical oxygen tubing, but it is turned up way high, and it is putting oxygen right into her lungs instead of her having to breath it in. it is *not* a respirator. there is a DNR on her, and mom said no respirator.

she has pneumonia. her wbc’s were at 12000 last night, and over 23000 today. her lower lung is cloudy, she is a mess. my poor baby :(

bah.

i wish she could just rest. she is so bloody miserable and tired lately. lately… for the past couple-few months.

on a lighter note, i dyed my hair. i’ll take piccy’s and post them later.

January 03, 2003

i don’t really have anything to update, per se….

malachai is playing with the kick start gym we had from dorian.. more or less contentedly. it’s new to him. so you know, of course, as soon as it typed that, it scared the shit out of him.

my mom took dorian & the twins to dinner at the rabbi’s house. she took him as an early out.

i went to big lots and got a friend of mine’s daughter dress up shoes & stuff for her birthday. i hope she likes it.

i think i need some time to find me again. i know it sounds kind of weird to say i lost myself, but i think i lost myself in trying to be the perfect mom, or at least, what i think that is supposed to be. i am me, but i’m not. i don’t write anymore (and haven’t in years), paint, create…. whatever. it’s been along time. i just started this business, but it is all business-y, not fun in a quirky kind of way. *shrugs* i htink i need to get to work on me some, maybe reclaim some of me. make sense? it does to me. i am letting my hair grow out again, i go through fits of it being short or long. so i am on a long kick. it’ll take a while. i got some more blond dye (so no, it’s isn’t bleach, but it’ll work just the same) so i can maybe get it light enough to take some other colour instead of more red. well, maybe red, but maybe cherry red.

chai is rolling over, he has mastered front to back, working on back to front. sometimes he gets it.

i miss my friends. i don’t see them enough. i should see them more.

i was thinking the other night, what if we can’t make it on our own? i mean, i am sure somehow we will… but once michael graduates, what if all he can find is some crappy 8$ an hour job? at this point, it would cost more than i could make to put the kids in daycare, which i refuse to do anyway. it just owrries me sometimes we will live here forever. i know we wont, but sometimes it is hard to see the sun at the end of the storm.
someitmes i just sit and wonder, where will we move to? orlando, jacksonville, a friend of mine’s hubbin is doing great in a shop in pensacola, but they are too much like georgia for my tastes….. i want to move north, but south enough to avoid the snow. maybe we will leave flroida. anything north of orlando is like a different state tho. who knows.

ah, ramblings. nothing phenominal, just day to day stuff. it’s hard to have a family of four these days, especially one on salary, and more so when said salary is what i call significantly less than 30k a year.

my butterballis rolling around on the ebd again, he is so funny.

had i not had my kids i’d be in a cushy job. or the company might have folded. who knows. but hten, i’d also not be married, or have met a lot of the cool people i have met in the last 3 or so years.

is it worth it? i love my kids, i love my husband, and i love that we are bettering ourselves. i just have to wonder if in bettering oursevles for the future, if we ar ereally limiting ourselves now…