so……

i mailed off a check to pulaski place today, along w/ the sales agreement and a form letter questioning my idea to put their product into baskets to re-sell. giving them proper credit to their products of course!

and my uncle larry is looking into pretty baskets for us. i am so excited! i hope to get this rolling soon, then i can buy a new domain and all and get that set up w/ a shopping cart…. so much to do! i want to get it up and running by the beginning of November so i can (hopefully!) offer holiday baskets for sale!

so glad mom is doing this with me, she paid for the initial kit, instead f my having to finance it, so i will pay her back instead. and hopefully some friends will host a party or two, and i know her friends will. yay!

kind of had a hard time with dorian today, he would not lie down for a nap! first we couldn’t find a binky, then he was just over tired, so he didn’t want to lie down…. he finally did tho.

chai has been a doll today, actually sleeping! whoohoo!

i had two checkerburgers for lunch (at 10.30 this morning lol) and some fries and an apple pie, and i just had 4 pieces of swiss cheese. i don’t know why i have been so hungry lately! i wonder if it’s because chai is nursing…

i’ve been trying to figure out what to do for samhain…. my brother and sister are taking dorian out, he is sooo cute in his costume! he was a wizard last year, this year he is a candy corn/pumpkin thing. i wanted to get him a cow or Frankenstein costume, but he wanted this orange outfit w/ candy corns on it with a pumpkin pocket on front, and it has this jay & silent bob looking skull cap. too cute! he didn’t want to take it off lol but i don’t know if michael and i will do anything special for this day. we have missed the past holidays for various reasons. any suggestions?

we are driving up to disney the 26 & 27 (my dad, brother, sister and my 2 kidlets) it should make for a nice mini-vacation.

and in december my mom, brother, sister and the kidlets are driving up to md for a visit. i know it seems like we go away a lot, but we really don’t. it just seems that all the vacation-like trips come all at once, then none for a long time. i wish michael and i had the time (and money) to go away, but between school and work for him, it will be a while. *sigh* someday tho, we will have the money to take a nice long vacation to somewhere. who knows where tho lol disney is kinda played out *grins*

ok, mini-up date

we made it to jaxx. whoohoo!! it was a loooong drive back down. we left va last night around 10.30 or 11, made it to jr’s (exit 97 in n. ca.) and stopped for the night. i wanted to keep driving (it was 4 am) but michael couldn’t sleep in the car and dorian was trying t turn over in his carseat. so we stopped. and slept for 4 hours. ok, everyone else slept, i dozed and fed chai. then at 8 am we went over to jr’s and spent about 150$ on smokes (3 cartons for my parents, 2 for me and 2 for michael) and bought some other stuff too. then we thought we were on our way, but we stopped a couple times and then for lunch, and then we got going. we made it here around 6/6.30ish.

i think we are leaving late late tonight so the kid will sleep on the way home (about a 5 hour drive)

so yah, that’s what’s up!

see y’all soon!!

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We’ll go forward from this moment
by Leonard Pitts Jr.
The Miami Herald

It’s my job to have something to say.

They pay me to provide words that help make sense of that which
troubles the American soul. But in this moment of airless shock when hot
tears sting disbelieving eyes, the only thing I can find to say, the only
words that seem to fit, must be addressed to the unknown author of this
suffering.

You monster. You beast. You unspeakable bastard.

What lesson did you hope to teach us by your coward’s attack on our
World Trade Center, our Pentagon, us? What was it you hoped we would learn?

Whatever it was, please know that you failed.

Did you want us to respect your cause? You just damned your cause.

Did you want to make us fear? You just steeled our resolve.

Did you want to tear us apart? You just brought us together.

Let me tell you about my people. We are a vast and quarrelsome
family, a family rent by racial, social, political and class division, but
a family nonetheless. We’re frivolous, yes, capable of expending tremendous
emotional energy on pop cultural minutiae — a singer’s revealing dress, a
ball team’s misfortune, a cartoon mouse. We’re wealthy, too, spoiled by the
ready availability of trinkets and material goods, and maybe because of
that, we walk through life with a certain sense of blithe entitlement. We
are fundamentally decent, though — peace-loving and compassionate. We
struggle to know the right thing and to do it. And we are, the overwhelming
majority of us, people of faith, believers in a just and loving God.

Some people — you, perhaps — think that any or all of this makes us
weak. You’re mistaken. We are not weak. Indeed, we are strong in ways that
cannot be measured by arsenals.

IN PAIN
Yes, we’re in pain now. We are in mourning and we are in shock. We’re
still grappling with the unreality of the awful thing you did, still
working to make ourselves understand that this isn’t a special effect from
some Hollywood blockbuster, isn’t the plot development from a Tom Clancy
novel.

Both in terms of the awful scope of their ambition and the probable
final death toll, your attacks are likely to go down as the worst acts of
terrorism in the history of the United States and, probably, the history of
the world.
You’ve bloodied us as we have never been bloodied before.

But there’s a gulf of difference between making us bloody and making
us fall. This is the lesson Japan was taught to its bitter sorrow the last
time anyone hit us this hard, the last time anyone brought us such abrupt
and monumental pain. When roused, we are righteous in our outrage, terrible
in our force. When provoked by this level of barbarism, we will bear any
suffering, pay any cost, go to any length, in the pursuit of justice.

I tell you this without fear of contradiction. I know my people, as
you, I think, do not. What I know reassures me. It also causes me to
tremble with dread of the future.

In the days to come, there will be recrimination and accusation,
fingers pointing to determine whose failure allowed this to happen and what
can be done to prevent it from happening again. There will be heightened
security, misguided talk of revoking basic freedoms. We’ll go forward from
this moment sobered, chastened, sad. But determined, too. Unimaginably
determined.

THE STEEL IN US

You see, the steel in us is not always readily apparent. That aspect
of our character is seldom understood by people who don’t know us well. On
this day, the family’s bickering is put on hold. As Americans we will
weep, as Americans we will mourn, and as Americans, we will rise in defense
of all that we cherish.

So I ask again: What was it you hoped to teach us? It occurs to me
that maybe you just wanted us to know the depths of your hatred. If that’s
the case, consider the message received. And take this message in exchange:

You don’t know my people. You don’t know what we’re capable of. You
don’t know what you just started.
But you’re about to le
arn.