it’s about time

we have an appointment for monday to have them come split the line and install the cable modem. not that i can’t hook it up my damn self, but this is 25$, and if for some reason it doesn’t work or whatever, it would have been another 100$ for them to come back and “fix it”. so this way it will be done by them and if it winds up not working its not our fault.

we also got a new cd player for my car this am. it’s nifty :-) it has changable face plates, so we can have leopard print or zebra stripe or flame job, or whatever :-) we have to wake up early as fuck tomorrow to have it installed, they were backe up like 3 hours, and fishie had to get wto work.

we took my mom for a colonoscopy this am (which is why we were even up early enough to get to brandsmart in the first place) and she is fine. she goes back in a week for something… i dunno. this whole family is medically falling apart.

so hows everyone else?

my myers-brigg

yes, i will lj-cut it.

Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

by Joe Butt
Profile: INFP
Revision: 2.2
Date of Revision: 7 Dec 99

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“I remember the first albatross I ever saw. … At intervals, it arched forth its vast archangel wings, as if to embrace some holy ark. Wondrous flutterings and throbbings shook it. Though bodily unharmed, it uttered cries, as some king’s ghost in super natural distress. Through its inexpressible, strange eyes, methought I peeped to secrets not below the heavens. As Abraham before the angels, I bowed myself…” –(Herman Melville, Moby Dick)

INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. It’s as though they live at the edge of a looking-glass world where mundane objects come to life, where flora and fauna take on near-human qualitie s.

INFP children often exhibit this in a ‘Calvin and Hobbes’ fashion, switching from reality to fantasy and back again. With few exceptions, it is the NF child who readily develops imaginary playmates (as with Anne of Green Gables’s “bookcase girlfriend”–h er own reflection) and whose stuffed animals come to life like the Velveteen Rabbit and the Skin Horse:

“…Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don’t matter at all, because once you are Real you can’t be ugly, except to people who don’t understand…” (the Skin Horse)
INFPs have the ability to see good in almost anyone or anything. Even for the most unlovable the INFP is wont to have pity.

Rest you, my enemy,
Slain without fault,
Life smacks but tastelessly
Lacking your salt!
Stuck in a bog whence naught
May catapult me,
Come from the grave, long-sought,
Come and insult me!.”
–(Steven Vincent Benet, Elegy for an Enemy)

Their extreme depth of feeling is often hidden, even from themselves, until circumstances evoke an impassioned response:

“I say, Queequeg! Why don’t you speak? It’s I–Ishmael.” But all remained still as before. … Something must have happened. Apoplexy!
… And running up after me, she caught me as I was again trying to force open the door. … “Have to burst it open,” said I, and was running down the entry a little, for a good start, when the landlady caught me, again vowing I should not break down her premises; but I tore from her, and with a sudden bodily rush dashed myself full against the mark.”–(Melville, >Moby Dick)

Of course, not all of life is rosy, and INFPs are not exempt from the same disappointments and frustrations common to humanity. As INTPs tend to have a sense of failed competence, INFPs struggle with the issue of their own ethical perfection, e.g., perfo rmance of duty for the greater cause. An INFP friend describes the inner conflict as not good versus bad, but on a grand scale, Good vs. Evil. Luke Skywalker in Star Wars depicts this conflict in his struggle between the two sides of “The Force.” Although the dark side must be reckoned with, the INFP believes that good ultimately triumphs.

Some INFPs have a gift for taking technical information and putting it into layman’s terms. Brendan Kehoe’s Zen and the Art of the Internet is one example of this “de-jargoning” talent in action.

Functional Analysis
INFPs live primarily in a rich inner world of introverted Feeling. Being inward-turning, the natural attraction is away from world and toward essence and ideal. This introversion of dominant Feeling, receiving its data from extraverted intuition, must be the source of the quixotic nature of these usually gentle beings. Feeling is caught in the approach- avoidance bind between concern both for people and for All Creatures Great and Small, and a psycho-magnetic repulsion from the same. The “object,” be it homo sapiens or a mere representation of an organism, is valued only to the degree that the object contains some m
easure of the inner Essence or greater Good. Doing a good deed, for example, may provide intrinsic satisfaction which is only secondary to the greater good of striking a blow against Man’s Inhumanity to Mankind.

Extraverted intuition faces outward, greeting the world on behalf of Feeling. What the observer usually sees is creativity with implied good will. Intuition spawns this type’s philosophical bent and strengthens pattern perception. It combines as auxiliary with introverted Feeling and gives rise to unusual skill in both character development and fluency with language–a sound basis for the development of literary facility. If INTPs aspire to word mechanics, INFPs would be verbal artists.

Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness, however, Feeling’s strong people awareness provides a balancing, mitigating effect. This introverted Sensing is somewhat categorical, a subdued version of SJ sensing. In the third position, however, it is easily overridden by the stronger functions.

The INFP may turn to inferior extraverted Thinking for help in focusing on externals and for closure. INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ business suit, but not without expending considerable energy. The inferior, problematic nature of Extraverted Thinking is its lack of context and proportion. Single impersonal facts may loom large or attain higher priority than more salient principles which are all but overlooked.

Famous INFPs:

Homer
Virgil
Mary, mother of Jesus
St. John, the beloved disciple
St. Luke; physician, disciple, author
William Shakespeare, bard of Avon
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow (Evangeline)
A. A. Milne (Winnie the Pooh)
Laura Ingalls Wilder (Little House on the Prairie)
Helen Keller, deaf and blind author
Carl Rogers, reflective psychologist, counselor
Fred Rogers (Mister Rogers’ Neighborhood)
Dick Clark (American Bandstand)
Donna Reed, actor (It’s a Wonderful Life)
Jacqueline Kennedy Onasis
Neil Diamond, vocalist
Tom Brokaw, news anchor
James Herriot (All Creatures Great and Small)
Annie Dillard (Pilgrim at Tinker Creek)
James Taylor, vocalist
Julia Roberts, actor (Conspiracy Theory, Pretty Woman)
Scott Bakula (Quantum Leap)
Terri Gross (PBS’s “Fresh Air”)
Amy Tan (author of The Joy-Luck Club, The Kitchen God’s Wife)
John F. Kennedy, Jr.
Lisa Kudrow (“Phoebe” of Friends)
Fred Savage (“The Wonder Years”)

Fictional INFPs:
Anne (Anne of Green Gables))
Calvin (Calvin and Hobbes)
Deanna Troi (Star Trek – The Next Generation)
Wesley Crusher (Star Trek – The Next Generation)
Doctor Julian Bashir (Star Trek: Deep Space 9)
Bastian (The Neverending Story)
E.T.: the ExtraTerrestrial
Doug Funny, Doug cartoons
Tommy, Rug Rats cartoons
Rocko, Rocko’s Modern Life cartoons

i know, i promised i wouldn’t count, but…

i am planning a day trip about 2 hours from my house on aug. 11, so i kinda had to. as of tomorrow, i have 33 days left to what i think is my sell by date.
which, as it turns out, is a week earlier than i had originally thought.
and is a day later than what sheila has down.

i have my next 3 appointments scheduled (for sheer ease, the next appt was almost impossible to make since it was for a week later, so the nice lady made the next 3 for me.) well, the last one is for the 8th. which leaves one, maybe 2 (that second one lands on the 22, which is my sell by date according to sheila).

so this is ok. objects in the mirror are closer than they appear and all that jazz.

but i have suddenly been bit by the “oh f**k, i don’t have anything really ready and it’s almost time” bug. not that i *need* anything. i think i have an outfit or two to toss in the wash, and i have a carseat for when we go out, and blankets and all. that’s all taken care of. i need to find my cloth diaper covers, but if i can’t, i have pins. i just prefer the covers. i am gonna go buy a small can of ready made soy or lactose free formula, just in case (i am a HUGE just in case kinda gal) something doesn’t go right w/ the breastfeeding thing. not that i don’t expect it to go flawlessly (arrogant little thing, aren’t i *grins*) but you never know. and we have no nursery to worry about, although i was looking into a changing table/dresser combo. sadly, the one i *want* was made about 20 years ago, and i swear they don’t make that exact style anymore. it has this thing that flips down, which i did find, but it’s not a big as i wanted. so oh well. less stuff for me to beg someone to buy me lol and i don’t have room for it anyway.

i just remember washing clothes, and folding, and sorting them away with dorian. i have the desire to do so this time, but not the drive, time or energy. i really should tho.

what was my point? oh, i will be minus 12 days a counting during this trip. but it’s to see one of our very best couple-friends on their honeymoon (we missed the wedding back in may, lack of money. shock.), which they are taking in naples b/c her parents have a condo there. and since we are a little over an hour/little under 2 hour drive (depends on traffic on alligator alley) from there, we are gonna go visit.

yah, me and my ripe pregnant behind. need to remember LOTS of water. and snacks.

i know, i am posting a lot today. but i have been thinking a lot today too lol

todays appointment went well…

i went in and saw sheila today, she did the group b test. i was neg w/ dorian, and she thinks it’s still to test everyone, but their policy is to test everyone, or just test high risk, so they just test everyone. i guess it works out well, but she seems to think it causes an overuse of antibiotics. *shrugs*

anyway, bp was 110/70, weight was 146 or so (yep, i am beginning to gain that extra blood/baby weight lol), and everything else was all good :-)

i am on weekly appointments (by her calendar i am 34 weeks… she said i could come in in 2 weeks, but then said since i was close to 35 weeks (?!? i thought i was around 32/33 weeks lol) we’d do it next week. i said fine.) now, and next week i’ll get her pager # and we’ll go over all that fun stuff. i am still hoping for a homebirth, but unless my hemoglobin count has come up, i might forego it. rather be safe than sorry.

i did ask about kids in the room w/ and basically the hosp i would be at has a policy that as long as they aren’t sick, they don’t care. and there has to be someone *else* to watch them (well, duh!) so i don’t have to worry about it. i asked about the water birth, and that’s no problem either… but then, i might not want anything to do w/ the water by then, so who knows lol

i had michael read my state farm preggers book last night, the part on labor/delivery since he wasn’t there for dorian’s. i don’t know if he got anything from it (he’s seen ld before, so it’s not like it’s totally new to him, but then it wasn’t someone he was emotionally attached to, so i think it’s different) but it made *me* feel better, esp. since we did not do childbirth classes (which i didn’t do w/ my first pregnancy either, i found them pointless, but i never realized how worried i’d be about how HE would react!)

so yah, that’s what’s up :-)