Holiday Gift Exchange Announcement

I will be offline for possibly about a week, as we are moving, and we haven’t taken care of the modem yet. If you need to get in touch with me, you can phone me at 754-224.6122, which is my mobile and is on me at all times. Tomorrow morning (monday) I will check my mail once more before shutting everything down.

This is filtered to the 12 of us who are in it. I usually do not give out my phone number just because, but if there is a problem, and you are able to phone, please do. Or if you jsut want to shoot the shit, because I am always happy to talk. Just an FYI, I can be phone shy the first time I talk to a new person.

I hope to be back up and online quickly, but you never know.

07 December 2003

the more i read some of my friends journals, the more i miss baltimore. not b/c there was anything spectacular about it, or when i go to visit i can’t bear to leave it, but because most of my memories are from there. and you all know, as you get older, memories grow more fond.

i remember people not how they were, but how i thought they were, and how my mind has distorted them over the years. i remember days in school with some people, and feeling like we were the only two people on the planet. i remember nights down at fells, and feeling the same way with other people. i remember how some people were just people to me, and other somehow wound up on pedestals.

i remember a feeling of safe, if only because i knew what to expect.

and then i warp back to the present, and realize i am probably better off for not being there. i wouldn’t be hanging out with those people anymore, and quite possibly, wouldn’t want to me. i know at least is still the same person they were over 7 years ago, and probably will never change. that scares me. people need to change, grow up, evolve into who they will be tomorrow, not stay who they were yesterday.

sometimes i feel like i have stagnated, but i look around at where i am, and what i have, and what i have accomplished, and i know i have not.

i do wish i could see some of them again tho. it’s nice to visit memories. some days i feel like they are all i have to keep me company other than my boys.

<3

07 December 2003

today is Erin’s 22 birthday. I got two small cat in the hat birthday cakes (4″ ones) and we will celebrate when Michael gets home from work.
It’s 12.30 p and my mom is still in bed. My dad said today is not a good day. We will see. I suspect it will pass without incident. I realize it is harder (understatement of the year) on my dad than anyone else. I wish I could do something to ease it, but I don’t know what that would be, even if I could do it.

We will move some stuff around in the garage tonight, so our friends can more easily get to the furniture tomorrow. We rented a truck, and will move everything tomorrow. The furniture at least, anyway. The boxes we can move as needed, if we can’t get them all tomorrow. We are move concerned about the furniture, mainly because it is so heavy and bulky, there is no way we could move it alone. My bedroom furniture is solid oak (read: ridiculously heavy) and we’ve got two couches (tho one of them separates into three pieces, so it’s more bulky than heavy), and the bed, and some other heavy stuff. The boxes are heavy, but small and manageable.

Yah, it’s gong to be a long day.

dc-area peeps

yes, i said peeps. i threw some names to who will be visiting a friend up that way sometime soon. hope no one minds. obviously, lj isn’t exactly conducive to proper introductions. so if he messages you, be nice :-)

06 December 2003

moving Monday posted by azxure on 12-06-2003 13:00

so we priced a truck, but didn’t reserve it yet. we will try to move the stuff in the garage around so we can get to all the furniture first, and worry about the boxes later.

my mom is taking dorian out with her today, claiming maybe i could get more packed up. whatever. i want to get the stuff out that is already packed first. what is left in the bedroom would get lumped into one box, nothing really “matching” and i really don’t want junk boxes. we shall see.

very happy that Monday night we will be sleeping there tho. i had been hoping to be doing so by now, but it just wasn’t meant to be. soon. soon.

stupid doctors posted by azxure on 12-05-2003 20:47

My mom convinced me to take Chai to the doc. He screamed for, no shit, 1/2 hour straight. Guess what? He had gas/stomach cramps from the virus. My mother is so doctor happy. I can understand it, and maybe that is why *I* am not, but it drives me nuts. It cost me $10 to find out he had gas.

Her van is in the shop, for a new head gasket. She won’t have it back until Tuesday. No moving for us on Sunday :( Unless we take the car seats out and all, but she also has a function Sunday night, so it’s probably a no-go anyway. I hope we can get everything else moved on Monday!

Went food shopping too. I had her get 2.5 dozen eggs, and I will take half to the new place. Oh, and I got skor toffee chips and cinnamon chips and oatmeal, so I can make oatmeal cookies and munch on toffee. Everyone loves my oatmeal cookies, so it will be nice to make them again. I have to double check the recipe and make sure I have everything. I know I have to get milk, butter, that stuff, but it can wait until I know we will be at the apt for good. I don’t want that stuff sitting around waiting to go bad.