for one of those deep posts.

my mom & dad took erin to the orthopedic surgeon yesterday. and to the regular doc, and to someone else. yeah, it was a long day.

anyway, they took xrays of her spine, to see just how bad the scoliosis is, and it’s nasty. she has basically a c in her spine. like this -

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but the c is VERY pronounced, not just like a slight curvature. mom said out of 100 people who have scoliosis, she is around 86 for how bad it is.

so they go back in january to see a) how it is progressing (meaning, is it stable, or getting even worse) and to b) decide if they want to wait a year and re-evaluate, or operate now. see, they didn’t operate 5 years ago b/c everyone was afraid erin would not make it off the operating table. 5 years later, i personally don’t think she is any stronger, or more likely to make it off the table. less likely maybe. probably. anyway, my mom asked me what i would do. i said that first off, it is NOT my decision, it is hers and dads. she said no, you are part of this family, so it is yours too. blah blah blah…

i said you have to look at her quality of life and do what is in her best interests. do the surgery.

in my best interest? don’t do it. yes, i would rather have my sister here, and in possible pain (who knows) than run the risk of her dying. and being gone. forever. because she has basically always been there ever since i can remember. but on the other hand, i do not want her to be in pain, and in that case, it is in her best interest to have it done. so either outcome, the surgery works, and fixes her spine, or she dies, she is in better place either way.

my dad doesn’t want to do it.

and i think that is all i have to say about that. it just is.

the regular doc gave her some meds to coat her stomach, her tube was leaking and the stomach acid was burning her skin and she had a slight infection.

and the other one, she goes in tomorrow i think, to boca general to have a new tube put in. if she has it done in the hospital, medicaid pays for it. fucked up. we’ve been putting them in for like, 16 years. but after this one, they are 15$ a piece out of pocket and we can do it instead of lugging her to the hospital.

yesterday was a crappy assed day, if you didn’t notice.

on a lighter note, i got my sewing machine, and have been practicing making bags (don’t ask) to make sure my stitching is straight. a few more and i should be ready to rock on making my big pants and fish’s shirt