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I went this morning to get my eye brows ripped out. It’s been too long and my face hurt. But they look awesome, so there ya go. Made another appointment for Feb 10, which is Eshiva’s first birthday. Yay for having red forehead on her morning photos! Her one year doc appointment is on Feb 6 at 8 am. That is more for my memory than your need to know.

Moms radiation deal did not work (as in, it didn’t get done) yesterday. I do not even want to talk about it, the doctors are so stupid, and are only shadowed by the insurance company in stupidity. Needless to say,  we were all pissed. They should be trying to do it again on this coming Tuesday and will change the procedure a bit so this does not happen again.

I have a good friend (well, as good as net friends get, I suppose, but she is good people and I like her a lot) making my mom a prayer shawl. She said many people have poured prayers, thoughts and well wishes into it already, and I cannot wait to see it. I know mom will love it. I have been picking on her for suddenly being very religious since Erin passed away, and I feel a bit bad for that, but I think her family ought to be her support, not the synagogue. That being neither here nor there, I think a prayer shawl that not only have prayers for her, but that she can pray with will make an excellent gift. I’d like to find a prayer box or wish box to give her as well, but I have not seen anything suitable yet.

I ordered some Shimmer from knitpicks (2 skeins) to make who knows what for myself, probably a shawl I can do at my leisure (read: it’ll take me a year to finish). The content is 70% Baby Alpaca, 30% Silk so it’s super luxurious. I also got one bluebell and two navy in the Andean Silk to make ahat for mom. The content is 55% Super Fine Alpaca, 23% Silk, 22% Merino Wool so it shouldn’t bother her. The Shimmer wouldn’t either, but it’s lace weight and I wanted to make her a hat with more coverage. Hmmm  perhaps a snood with the Shimmer if I have it left over or just use some of the skeins for it instead? I went yarn crazy, I also won an eBay auction for 10 skeins of recycled sari silk yarn. 36$ shipped though, you can’t beat that! The auction says the skeins are about 600 yards total. Not shabby. Those ought to make nice, colourful hats as well. I want to knit one for mom and some to send to the oncologists office.

Is that all? I could have sworn I had more to say. I have an appointment for Jan 31 at 2 pm for Dorian and his speech. I’m not sure if it’s an IEP that day or what, but hopefully it’s the IEP and we can get started on that!

Today’s the day!

No, it isn’t sex day (does anyone else remember that joke?) Today is the rediation on mom. I haven’t heard from my dad yet, but I am assuming everything is ok based on that (in other words, if it wasn’t ok and she blew up or something he’d have called sooner, but by not calling she is either not done or in recovery).

We went all white trash and went to kmart this morning to get Dorian some shorts and socks. I love Joe Boxer socks, and kmart has them. Wound up getting a ton of stuff, lots of clothes for Dorian (shorts were on sale for 6$!), an outfit or two for Malachai, some avent cups for Eshiva, a couple of movies and some other goodies. Oh, and laundry soap that I hope doesn’t fuck up our washer b/c it isn’t HE specific.

I have to take Dorian to Kumon today, but I might skip it. I haven’t decided yet. I already told them we wouldn’t be there on the 23rd, 26th and possibly the 30th. They are closed on the 16th. So will it kill him to miss 20 minutes today too? I have all the work to do at home, it takes him maybe three minutes per book.  I guess I’ll decide when it gets closer to time to go. I also have to pick the kids up from school today, and I don’t really want to load D and E into the car once, then ahve to do it again an hour later…

Not a newborn much longer.l..

Esh will be 1 next month (EEEK! where the fuck did a year go???) and the other morning she took four unassisted steps in the kitchen. This is pretty big, because she hasn’t been too big on motoring aorund holding things either (not hands, not a push toy, not furniture). Well, she has one push toy, that was Dorian’s I think, but she is more about sitting next to it and making it make noise lol Since then, she’s been taking steps in groups of four all over the place. I think she’ll be a walking pro by her birthday.

We wont be doing anything special, but we didn’t for the other kids either. Dinner at the house, maybe my grandparents will come down, I’ll bake a cake, the usual really.

She’s got the same six teeth (four on top, two on the bottom) but some looks like they might want to come in. She loves eating and so far she hasn’t refused anything (watch, now she will). Well, she spit sout the first taste of stuff, but then gobbles down the rest.

She is into putting things “in”, so sorting toys, baskets with misc. toys, anything she can use to put it in. She loves the turtles and the fishes and the snail. She said duck the other day at the park, hisses at the cat (and sort of says cat), ma, da, ra, and other assorted sounds she’s decided are words but i haven’t noticed a pattern of them being assigned to things or people. She loves to pick the phone up to her ear and babble away as well. Someone watches her ra-ra too much (my mother is constantly on a phone).

Shiva shiva!

Eshiva took four steps this morning in the kitchen. Time flies. She’ll be one in about a month!

but wait, there’s more

What did I write last? The radiation I think. It’ll be about a 10 minute session it sounds like.

The seizure meds and the steroids and reacting against eachother, so she’s on insulin too, and swollen and red.

There is cancer on her cervical vertibrae. I don’t know what that means yet, I’ve not looked it up. Well, it means the cancer has invaded the bone, so it sucks. Yah, I am back to cancer sucking. Fuck you cancer. It’s funny, the tumors on the brain are the most treatable.

We talked to my grandparents tonight. I’ve been talking in circles to them for days, until we knew what was up and there was something to tell. They took it ok. At least as long as we were there.

They are formulating some massive chemo drugs to put her on next week. Ok, she was on them already, but they are reconfiguring the doses and the types to best do the job without overdoing the job.

Fun times. Yah right.

The stress is wearing on me. Everything the kids do pisses me off, for the past couple of days. I feel awful, but things that normally wouldn’t piss me off are. I know it’s not fair to them, but it’s not coming out anywhere else. I’m trying to write it out instead.

My flirty skirty is coming along nicely. Those nine inches of knit is pretty monotonous, but I’m not doing it all at once, and it’s going faster than I expected. I wont be done it next week, but I should be finished it within the month.

I know I’m forgetting things, but I don’t know what. Mom goes for the rad on Tuesday, and it sounds like she’ll be home on the third or fourth, barring anything weird happening.

We bought an industrial circle punch thing and a button maker, and it comes with enough parts to make 1000 1 1/4 buttons and 1000 1 1/4 magnets. We’ll be making the punkymoms buttons/magnets, since buying this via eBay was a lot cheaper than buying just 250 buttons. Plus we wind up with a button maker!

I also got a cool pair of boots, so yay for that too.