I was feeling incredibly silly last night. Had some fun over on PM’s with llamas 
We had some drama, I think it’s over now. I might be wrong, and I am sorry the gal who felt bad felt that way, but I truly think it was blown way the fuck out of proportion. Not that her upset wasn’t valid, it was, but it jsut got too big. So it’s done. So we wound up on a llama posting rage lol
Might go to LA in Oct. Might not.
i have been waffling back and forth on that. a lot. see, i can leave the boys w/ my mom and bring eshiva. but i feel awfulk for leaving them on halloween. not that we do much, but… fish works so late, it makes me feel bad.i am pretty sure we will still be here come then, it’s only 3 months away and i don’t expect to pull moving money and plans out of my ass in 3 months. so then i feel bad b/c that money could be moving money.
i think if i can pay off part of one of our credit cards i might treat myself to a trip. fish already said ok, my mom said it’d be ok as well.
we also might be in dc in oct, but i doubt it b/c mom wants to drive up and fuck that, 7 of us do not fit in a van b/c of the carseats. we did it two years ago, when chai was a baby, and that was a tight enough fit, let alone w/ an extra carseat, ya know? but there are only 5 days of school in oct b/c of the jewish holy holidays, so who knows.
if you hadn’t noticed, i have a terrible self-guilt problem.
So we’ll see. I’d really like to go, it’ll be fun times. It’s also a good sized party, from the sounds of it, and I am certainly not at my best with tons of people around. Lots of reasons to go, lots not to.
The mazda is paid off! Whoot!! Kind of exciting. We are looking at buying (not in this order) a new bed, a new computer (w/ flat panel), some more camping gear (we picked up a 3 room/7 person tent yesterday), possibly a laptop for Fish for work, and some other misc. stuff. I also need to get on top of some of our credit cards, and I can also potentially send larger payments on the van and/or the student loans.
