I got upset they didn’t ask if I wanted to go.
No, let me back up. I wasn’t upset they didn’t ask me to go when I thought they were going out alone, to meet up with some friends who happen to be in town.
Then mom came and asked if I wanted her to take Dorian, b.c he hasn’t shut up and stopped screaming his little lungs out for four days now. He has forgotten how to talk. Everything illicits screaming. EVERYTHING. So I said sure, enjoy, maybe he’ll shut up for five seconds if he goes out with someone else.
Then I go downstairs to get something to eat, b/c dinner sucked ass (people have been sending food over……. the past two nights it’s been ordered from the local kosher catering place, and their food sucks big hairy balls. Kosher food does not have to taste like ass, I know b/c I’ve made it before. This tastes like ass. And this is relevent, in a minute.) and my sister is pulling on her shoes and is going with them.
Now I am upset I wasn’t even invited. No, I don’t want to go. I haven’t had a shower in four days (ok, maybe less, but it feels like four days) and I want it to be a nice long one, not a short one. I don’t have any clothes to put on, none that wont make me look like a schlub anyway. I am just upset I wasn’t given the courtesy of being invited.
So mom gets all pissy I am upset over not being asked and demands I shower and go. Um, fuck off.
My toddler is sitting quietly watching Monsters Inc., and wtithout D here to egg him on, he truly is quiet, not screaming his little head off too.
So this goes back and forth for 5 minutes or so, with her getting upset I am upset.
Then she asks if I want her to bring something home. I said yah, food that doesn’t taste like shit.
So she says “Now I really am upset, thanks.” and walks out.
FUCK OFF! You didn’t cook the food, you didn’t order the food, you didn’t ask for the food.
So why do I feel bad, and why do I feel like it was petty to just want a damned invitation if everyone else was going? She says she didn’t think I wanted to go, and she was going to ask, but figured I’d say no. Well, yah, I didn’t want to go, but fuck. It’s nice to at least think your company is wanted.
